This blog post is my first personal post, in a really long time. I’m writing it because I’m convinced that I need to be constantly doing stuff outside of work that gives some kind of meaning to someone, even if that someone is just me.
I’m also writing this post because I have a fear of blogging. And I want to face that fear.
Not because I’m turning 30 in two weeks (although some would say there’s a direct correlation between age and wisdom and bravery). But because I’m at that point in my life where I can consciously see how fear is holding me back – and holding all of us back.
I’ve always wanted to write a blog, to have a creative and intellectual outlet. But fear was holding me back.
Fear of what you say? Let me list the extent of this fear….
- Fear of what people would think of it, or of me. (Who does she think she is? Her content/views/WordPress template is amateur, at best).
- Fear that my friends, family and colleagues would actually read it and judge me. (Irrational, I know).
- Fear that it wouldn’t be good. (Who says what’s good anyway?).
- Fear that I would fail at it. READ: That I would fail to keep it up, commit to it, and see the project through.
- Fear that I would have nothing to say or I would run out of things to say.
- Fear of how it would come across to people.
- Fear that people would think, “Oh she’s just another one of these wannabe bloggers.”
- Fear of committing to an area like food, fashion or travel and not having enough to say on the matter. (Fear of defining myself, my blog, my passions, etc).
You get the idea.
Isn’t it horrible to have so many fears inside your head, holding you back? Well, I think it is. So I’m going to focus on facing my fears, starting with this blog.
The inspiration for this blog came from a million sources, but two in particular:
James Altucher’s podcast interviews with award winning author Seth Godin, and writer/filmmaker Brian Koppelman.
Seth Godin is an institution of the Internet. He’s written 18 books in total on blogging, digital content, marketing etc. His latest book, and the subject of this interview, is What to Do When It’s Your Turn: And It’s Always Your Turn.
During his interview Seth lays down some strong points-of-view about how people like you and me should be blogging everyday. The premise being that: “If you conjoll yourself into speaking a truth – your truth – every single day, on schedule, you will learn to dance with fear. You will be able to write until you’re not afraid of writing anymore.”
Writer, director and film producer Brian Koppelman suffered serious writers’ block during the writing of his screenplay Solitary Man.
Up until this point Brian had had a very successful career alongside his friend and business partner David Levien. The pair created films like Rounders and Oceans Thirteen.
Solitary Man was to be Brian’s first solo project. Without his creative partner David on board, he feared that the film would be a massive failure. And this fear was holding him back from finishing it.
So Brian took a break from writing to have a go at standup comedy. At 40 years old, it was something he always wanted to do but was always too afraid to try.
He went to open-mic nights, took courses and perfected his craft, each time putting himself out there, on stage, and opening himself up to ridicule.
By overcoming his fear of standup comedy, Brian was able to overcome his fear of failure, and finished his film.
What fears are holding you back? What are the things you really want to do but are too afraid to try?
Have a think.
In the meantime, I’ll be facing my fears by writing here everyday, for as long as it takes to not be afraid anymore.